They leave. Because they should. Or they find someone else. And some of them…some of them forget me. I suppose in the end… they break my heart.
Some left me, some got left behind and some…not many but some, died.
I always feel really silly pouring my thoughts out to the internet but sometimes you just need to tell someone and there is really no one for me to tell. Anyway, I will probably end up deleting this just as I always do. I feel like I am always there for everyone - if someone needs help then I always just stop what I am doing to help them. Despite this, however, when I need help it always seems that no one has time for me. It shows even in little things such as the countless times that I have made deals with people about scanning parts of work for them in return for them scanning parts of work for me. In the end, I am the only one to ever uphold the bargin. Despite this, I know I will never change but I think I will have to start choosing the people that I put my trust in more wisely. I find it really sad that I am barely even upset to be leaving the people that I have spent the last 6 years of my life with. The only thing that makes me sad to be leaving is the uncertainty of the year ahead.